Even though i never go on this site anymore I just thought i would give myself a little help in some other projects. For anyone that happends to stumble across this I would love it if you checked out some of my photogalleries and told me what you think.

http://contradictioninlight.tripod.com/

oh and check me out on my Myspace at  http://www.myspace.com/contradiction_in_light

Why do people run from what they can't control or deal with. I just dont understand it.

When a problem comes up wouldnt it be better just to deal with it then avoid it making those around you wonder.

But that might be the problem...   I wonder if the opposite is that bad. I fix shit...  if somthing is wrong i want to fix it... 

I'm the opposite.

I'm the guy who wants to talk about shit and make it better so i dont have to deal/worry/think/lose sleep about or over it. so i wonder which is better...

Obviously running away seems to work for some ppl. And even though it fucks over others, it gets points for instant gratification...

And all i get for dealing with my problems is more problems, and the one person i give a shit about mad at me because they fall into the other catagory ...  well i guess im just fucked

Have you ever had one of those months where everything was up in the air.

Where your broke, out of a job, and really nothing seems to be going your way.

Your tired, you can't sleep, your always worried.

Now flip forward a little bit.

You just got a great paying job that you start in two days, and things are starting to look up.

You know that perfect night of rest that is supposed to come, the one where finnaly eveything you worry about has slowly vanished and you feel relaxed.

Last night was supposed to be that night for me. And better yet it was daylight savings so I should have gotten an extra hour.

Instead I had one of the most sleepless nights I've had in ages,

Between waiting up most of the night, and waking up every half hour until eight when my insomnia had finnaly won the battle for control of my senses, I had the glorious night I have waited so long for destroyed.

I know some out there my think this is mellowdramatic or that I am getting a little too exasperated over such a small thing. But you try going two or three weeks without a decent restful night and see if your not angry when it should have all been copacetic.

Hopefully tonight I can get some rest I work in the morning.